T̶̬̰̪̯͐̌Ḧ̵͔̗̳̆̐͗I̶͓͌S̵̢͆ ̸̦̈́͌͘Į̷̩̩͗̀S̶̰̒̍ ̴̭̱͕́Ą̸͗ ̸̭̳̙̓͗P̴̤͓̾͋͂Ò̸͎R̴̹͚̦̖͋̒̃̇T̴̬̘͔̋̀A̷̳͐L̵̛̮̬̝̇̏͠.̷̥͎̰̦̐͝ ̵̥͇̼̘͂̉̿͗Ĭ̸̧̛̼̞͛̕ ̷̨̐͑̎W̶̭̜̆̐Ę̷̲̌̓͐A̴̞͉̻͗͂V̸̥̭͈̄̊͒̕E̸͕͆̑ ̸̦̱̫́̊P̵̘̥̳̅O̷̧͈̬̿͌̀͒R̴̩͂T̶̬͍͑̈́͐A̸̧̨͍̘͘L̸͓̞̳̒̅̕Ś̵͎̥͘͝.̷̞͔̂͛̆̑ ̴̹̾̆̾
THIS IS A PORTAL. I WEAVE PORTALS.
It's really hard sometimes to explain what I do. Or how much of my life is involved in to weaving of it...
I can find it frustrating. But that's also part of the game... the dance .. because the process I am working upon is making articulatable the seemingly inarticulatable.
That INARTICULATED universe is the rich depths of your inner being.
How many times have you felt the deep longing in your heart to share the jewels that you KNOW are inside of you..
But you don't know where to start... ?
So many of the world's problems can be boiled down to communication issues, to difficulties articulating differing perspectives.
We urgently need to cultivate better skills to dialogue with diversity, to hold seemingly contrary perspectives alongside each other.. with compassion and curiosity.
The way that I worked upon growing this skill...was through journaling.
I know, it seems like the most introverted activity you could possibly imagine but... what journaling allows you to do is to dialogue with yourself.
Once you begin dialoguing with yourself, you will soon realise that you, in fact, have many selves... many flavours and fluctuations of beingness. Even a shift in mood can have you relating with everything around you and yourself in a totally different way.
Using journaling, I experimented with allowing these selves to come into dialogue...
HERE ARE TWO WAYS YOU CAN START DOING THIS:
- DURING THE SAME MOMENT...
When I'm trying to make a decision and parts of myself are clashing inside of me.. I let them talk to each other by writing them down as if I'm writing a script.
For example:
Scared Self: I want to run away from this relationship. What if I get hurt? Distorted idealistic romantic Self: Nothing could possibly go wrong. This person is perfect. Realist: I hear both of your perspectives... Yeah, you might get hurt... but its worth the risk... And this person, like all people, is flawed... loving them deeply and healthily will hold space for that fact.
[if you don't have names for the flavours/ voices inside of you... that's okay. You can use letters, numbers, symbols, squiggles... shapes... anything to differentiate that suits your brain and self-understanding process...]
- ACROSS DIFFERENT MOMENTS ..sometimes they come into contact through different time-frames... like when I read back on my journals and find a past version of my self telling me their perspective on things (which is often different to the one I currently hold).
At a most simple level, a good example you can try very easily to make the most of this method... is whenever you're next all sesh-y / drunk... write a letter to your hungover/crashy self, letting them know you're having a fantastic time, reminding them of some of the good moments that happened.. and thanking your future self for going through the hangover for you
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Anyways, yes, so after some examples and further explanations... what I'm angling towards saying is... by doing this practice of harmonising and encouraging into meaningful dialogue the many disparate parts of you... you begin to re-connect networks of intimacy inside of yourself. And this programming/ magical act/ mind-technology has applications beyond this place... because, with a few minor tweaks, it has many transferable skills when it comes to handling INTERPERSONAL DIFFERENCE. Your inner being is a microcosm of the social network you exist within.
I.E:
BY CREATING DIALOGUE INSIDE OF YOUR OWN SELF-RELATING THAT HOLDS SPACE FOR DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF YOU (who possibly clash)
YOU CULTIVATE THE POSSIBILITY FOR SUCH DEEP INTIMATE RELATING BETWEEN SEEMINGLY OPPOSING OPINIONS/UNIQUE PERSPECTIVES TO HAPPEN OUTSIDE OF YOU / INTERPERSONALLY.
This is a magical act, primarily around the work of connection.
To me, ART IS WHAT NATURALLY UNFOLDS WHEN WE CONNECT DEEPLY TO SOMETHING.
All of my experimental art, all of my weirdnesses, all of my social choices, all of my personal private moments of presence... the way I do EVERYTHING is geared towards the perpetuation and emanation of this magickal act. And, to me, this isn't just a good solid piece of inner-activism... It also just so happens that the most amazing art you'll ever make come from moments of DEEP CONNECTION. [Hey, look, its almost like the workings of the universe are wired beautifully in our favour ]
This is just a small snapshot of what I do. If you have any questions/ comments/ intrigues I'd love to know. I realise now, more than ever, [ in this moment ] that my life mission is about creating and cultivating DIALOGUES. I need your help with figuring out how to explain this vision. Because everything, EVERYTHING, is a collaborative process.
So, talk to me. Join in. Let's weave our voices together and see what the chemistry creates.
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